The first time I ever felt you kick, I thought it was just gas. And the next, I thought it was just my stomach telling me to eat breakfast. A few more times, I thought it was just my pregnant digestive system acting up. I wish I could’ve been more observant. I wish I could’ve recorded it in my calendar so I could remember that on this day, my little one let me know that he is alive and well.
During the fifth month of the enlargement of my uterus, I began to get annoyed at the movements inside my tummy. I can feel him stretching his limbs and kicking me everywhere without any care if I am getting uncomfortable. I often think to myself how I’d like for this to be over soon and that I cannot wait for the incessant kicking to just stop. And then it got quiet inside of me.
I began to miss that feeling I once thought was so annoying. I often got struck by paranoia because the movements became less frequent and the impact less intense. I immediately regretted thinking about him being still. It was the worst feeling not to feel your baby growing healthy inside you. My views on kicking did a 360.
Now, when I feel any sudden movements in my tummy, I am overjoyed. I swell with pride. I feel like I am becoming more like a mother. I still cannot wait for this to be over soon. I cannot wait to hold my little one, to touch his tiny hands with his tiny fingers. I cannot wait to see my baby for the first time.